The Diary of Lovely Gwen

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2009-09-14T20:18:00.000+08:00

我也很想要独立。。。自己有着自己的生活圈子，不需要什么都麻烦你。。。我已经很努力了，但是你还是看不见我得改变。。。我也很想拥有自己的车，可以帮我代步。。。想去哪，就去哪，不需要你每次都来接送我。。。我也很想要很多很多的朋友，每天的生活都像你那么的精彩。。。我去健身，跳拉丁。。。也是想把自己平淡又空白的生活填满，但没想到反而更给你添麻烦。。。昨天我们又吵架了，这是我们第一次冷战那么久。。。昨天的电话，你一开口就大骂。。。你都还没有给我解释的机会，就说不会来载我，要我立刻回家。。。我只想说我是你的女朋友，不是你的宠物。。。以后不要那么大声来吼我。。。我的心真的好难过，好伤心。。。以前的你从来都不会这样对我。。。昨天，我哭了一整夜，哭得眼睛都肿了。。。好想找个朋友倾述，但一个也没有。。。你应该还是认为这是我的错，在等着我打电话想你先开口说道歉吧？我是女孩子，为什么你就不能先低头呢？就那么一次也好，但你从来都不会选择这样做。。。是因为每次你都觉得我在无理取闹吗？我知道你工作压力大，但我又何尝不是？如果你心里还有那么一个我，那么请你好好了解我，体谅我。。。因为我还是用心的爱着你

我就是这样！

2009-07-23T14:10:00.000+08:00

我就是这样。。为什么她们总爱批评我？关她们叉事吗？我头发乱又怎样？我眼睛睡不醒又怎样？我身材很胖又怎样？我的穿着像孕妇又怎样？我带眼镜很难看又怎样？难道我有严重到妨碍公司的市容那么严重吗？每次都爱批评我，把我当玩笑，我都算了。。但不要太过分！整天像八婆似的到处说人是非，为什么自己不检讨自己？你们就不胖吗？你们穿衣服就很有品味吗？你们就没有睡不醒的时候吗？你们在办公室就没有打过瞌睡吗?内涵～女人最重要的是内涵～修养～女人最不能少的是修养～再加上贤惠是最应该有的～虽然我不漂亮，身材也不好，但女人应有的内涵修养及贤惠我应该都来得比你们好吧！我也想誊清的是我不是天生就头发那么乱，身材那么胖的～我只是懒的去修饰罢了！孕妇装又怎样？我明白你们的意思，意思是说我的胖身材穿什么都像孕妇对不对？那是因为我已经知道自己有多少斤两，不敢像你们那么勇敢穿那些会把肚子那块轮胎印的那么明显的紧身衣～再给我多一点时间吧～我会让你们刮目相看的！总好过有些人只会说别人，但自己却不去做不去检讨～

闷

2009-07-23T11:35:00.001+08:00

我讨厌我的工作！！我要离开～

Cooking

2009-06-17T10:13:00.001+08:00

I love to cook more and more recently. I enjoyed very much to discover other different potential recipe from website. It makes my damn boring life become colorful and fun. I’m alive when I fully concentrate and focus on my cooking dishes. I love to cook for my friends, family and especially my beloved one. Since I was still a child, I used to live together with my grandfather and granny. My granny treated three of us (my elder sister, me and my baby sister) strictly. She is a traditional Hakka woman came from China, so women in her mind must talent to handle all house jobs and know to serve her own family and her future family very well is a need. She used to said that girls must be willing to learn, of course LEARN in her dictionary was including a lot of meaning, for examples cooking, household chores, attitude and so on. Cooking is most pressed by her towards three of us. I still remember that I start to visit market with my granny since I was just eight years old. I need to wake up around 06:30am and latest also 07:00am. My granny definitely will show me her “COLOUR” if I wake up later. In the market, she loves to teach me how to choose the freshest vegetables and meats. Sometimes, she will give me a hard scold if I did wrong. We need practice to prepare dishes for family during weekend (The time we did not schooling). Still remember she likes to sit behind us when we were cooking. I’m missing that moment really much now…Household chores have to do everyday after came back from schooling, likes cleaning toilet, bath room, wash dishes, sweep and mop floor. I really do not understand why must a girl learn all above, and we hate to do too. Now, we finally understand her motive and really thank to her efforts towards three of us. We really love her! I hope to learn more and more delicious dishes for my all beloved one every second when I free.

真愛，就不要等

2009-03-10T16:10:00.001+08:00

1.很清楚的知道她不合適自己，可是更確定的是他不會主動說分手。
他只是耗著等著，直到有一天女生自己受不了忽冷忽熱、若即若
離的態度，或是等到年華老去不得不下決定時，自己選擇離開。
妳的主動離開，我沒有負心，反而是尊重與成全妳的決定。

2. 半年後發現，他居然可以跟一個只認識三個月的女生步入禮堂，
令她晴天霹靂，才明白他不是不想結婚，不是真的不婚主義者，
說穿了只是他不想跟妳結婚。
八年的愛情長跑比不上三個月的感情。

3. 這位故事中的男生是我的朋友，現在也已經結婚半年。
當他聽到劉若英的「後來」，居然會無法克制的流眼淚，想起
的是他交往八年的前任女友。
為什麼會難過，因為妻子身上有著前任女友的影子，
他才明白其實他喜歡的就是這種類型的女孩。

4. 可是人往往很矛盾，喜歡她的倔強與有性格，卻受不了她的嬌縱。
喜歡她的落落大方，卻受不了她的朋友一堆；
你愛她的小家碧玉，就不要怪她不夠大方；
你愛她的活潑大方，就不要批評她像花蝴蝶一樣。
戀愛談的愈長，結婚的可能性就愈低，
所以有時候戀愛的長度與結婚的可能性成反比。

5. 喜新厭舊是人性，日子久了，會結婚不是為了愛情，而是責任
感的驅使。婚後的他才慢慢的發現，當時的那一段感情其實不
是不愛，是時間太久了太長了，把愛情給磨掉了，再遇到另一
個女孩點燃了愛情的火苗，星星之火足以遼源，把枯竭已久的
愛情給予生命，所以倉促的決定結婚。
等到真的結婚後，愛情降了溫，才慢慢的發現其實妻子的身上
有著許多前任女友的影子，他比較愛的人其實還是前任女友，
可是他娶的卻不是她。
這樣的情節不知道是不是也在別處同樣上演著？

6. 學生時代的愛情很單純，出社會以後總想等工作穩定以後再結
婚，工作穩定以後又想等有一點積蓄買車子、買房子以後再結
婚，等著等著，等到愛情被時光給消磨，等到第三者介入點燃
了對方心中激情的火苗，乾柴烈火不可收拾以後，曾經在年少
一起織夢的理想全都抵擋不了新鮮感的激情，所以琵琶別抱，
到最後步入禮堂的都不是在一起同甘共苦、共同經歷過寒、暑
假，等當兵的人。

7. 所以奉勸各位女孩子，
如果對方真的是你想結婚的對象，不要想著有房子有車子有金
子，有了一切再結婚。
現實是，等他有了一切，他的身價暴漲是有價值的單身貴族，
他必需要面臨的是更多的誘惑，妳長久以來的等待與年輕時許
下的山盟海誓都難以抵擋誘惑排山倒海的來。
就像我現在若不嫁他，非得等到他有車子有房子還有存款時再
結婚，那時新娘有極高的可能不是我。
因為要等到什麼都有還要幾年？
有能力的男人就像酒愈久愈香醇，女人則像麵包一樣有賞味期
限，青春是女人的天敵。
如果我是他，等到我三十五歲，什麼都有是個有上千萬身價的
黃金單身漢，我並不需要一個很有能力而年過三十的女人來幫
襯我，我寧可選個如花似玉，年輕貌美的女生，也許沒有什麼
工作能力，至少發揮了賞心悅目的功能，一個真正有能力的男
人，不會在乎一個女人是否能在他的財富上加乘。
遇上對的人，莫等待莫蹉跎，也許沒有房子沒有車子，只要他
認真上進，他就是張有潛力的積優股，早點進場獲利更高。

8. 也提醒各位男士，
如果對方真的是你想好好疼愛的女人，別讓她等太久，有她一
起陪你奮鬥應該是很美好的一件事除非你心中有其他的想法，
否則別讓愛情等太久，把真愛都磨掉了！雖然聽起來很殘忍,但
身邊的家人朋友都有類似的例子。

真愛，就不要等，除非是不想結婚......

Terrible

2009-03-02T11:11:00.000+08:00

Lose hair…Lose hair…What a terrible fact to a woman! I’m facing this problem recently…Oh my god! I wonder why I will reach this step so fast. Too stress? Impossible…I can’t sleep well recently…thinking of solution to solve it…Wish to find hair treatment centre, but I can’t afford it…Too expensive for one package! Haih…Help!! Anyone there to help? Any good idea? Please…

My Dog

2009-02-24T18:58:00.002+08:00

My dog, kopi has passed away on last Friday, February 20, 2009...I was sad...and you'll always in our memories...You were such a loyal friend to us!

Rain

2009-02-23T13:04:00.002+08:00

It's raining here...I miss you, my dear...Wonder what you're doing now? Wonder when i can stay with you always?

For Perfume Lovers

2009-02-17T09:51:00.000+08:00

Simply Pure for Men designed by Oliver Henry is a masculine blend of freshness blended with oriental spices wrapped around tobacco and wood notes to create a refined and seductive scent that is truly unique. Its ingredients are organized by Italian Mandarin Yozu, Nutmeg, Anise, Leather, Sandalwood and Tobacco. Believe that most of the perfume lovers are not realize its existence market in Malaysia. It is one of the PolyTrade America brand establishment in October 1992. My friend’s auntie who is running perfume retail business introduced it to me as my Valentine’s present for my guy. Firstly, I was considered for long time whether should give it a try or choose other more popular brands likes Hugo Boss, Davidoff and Monblanc. Now, I would likes to introduce it to all perfume lover based on its elegant and distinctive designs packing and quality products at affordable price.

Maybe you can give it a try when you would likes to add stock in your perfume collection or as a present for your beloved one. Trusts me and you will feel it is deserve.

Angel's Sound from China - Yao Si Ting

2009-02-16T10:44:00.001+08:00

Yao Si Ting, a sweet and touch voice singer from China. Maybe most of Malaysian never hears about her name. I was shocked when I first time to hear her voice in Harris Popular CR-Rama. What kind of feeling is that? I don’t know, but I just can describe it as a voice which is touching the bottom of heart feeling. I felt likes my exhausted heart has been cured by her voice at the moment. Then, I seem the assisting from the assistant on duty. Fionna and I have share to buy two of her promotion album – Endless Love – Love II and Endless Love – Love IV due to its cheaper promotion price (First album RM39.90 and two albums only for RM60.00). In 36 track list, my most favorite song is “Speak Softly, Love” and it is the song which was motivated my mind to buy her album. It’s a very romantic love song. Let’s share about these two albums together. I hope your guy also share the same comment with me after listen her wonderful voice.

Artist: Yao Si Ting - (姚斯婷)Album: Endless Love - Love II
Tracklist:
01 - Scarborough Fair
02 - Starry, Starry Night
03 - Angel
04 - Where's My Love
05 - I Cry
06 - Don't Cry For Me Argentina
07 - You Raise Me Up
08 - Take a Bow
09 - No Matter What
10 - How Did I Fall In Love With You
11 - Every Time
12 - Edelweiss
13 - The Sound Of Silence

Artist: Yao Si Ting - (姚斯婷)Album: Eternal Singing - Endless Love IV

Tracklist:

01 - Speak Softly, Love

02 - Tonight I Celebrate My Love

03 - Smoke Gets In Your Eyes

04 - It Doesn't Matter

05 - Because Of You

06 - You've Got A Way

07 - How Deep Is Your Love

08 - Be Thou My Vision

09 - When I Fall In Love

10 - A Living Prayer

11 - Somewhere In Time

12 - We Are One

13 - One More Time

Speak Softly, Love (Lyric)

Speak softly, love and hold me warm against your heart
I feel your words, the tender trembling moments start
Were in a world, our very own
Sharing a love that only few have ever known

Wine-colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights when we are one

Speak softly, love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours and all becau-au-se
You came into my world with love so softly love

Wine-colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights when we are one

Speak softly, love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours and all becau-au-se
You came into my world with love so softly love

Happy Valentine Day 2009

2009-02-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

Let’s talk about this valentine day…Not really special and damn boring for me…Promised to be Satia’s wedding sister…I have putted a lot of efforts to the morning session, but they ruined all my plan and sweep off my mood! Haih….and I sacrificed my valentine’s candle light dinner yesterday just for attends their wedding dinner…Actually, I think this new celebration idea is quite interesting, but I can felt that he was so boring whole the night…I’m sorry…

Another thing makes me disappointed…erm…what is it? I have spent my two months night to create and design a very touching powerpoint show for him as his valentine’s present, but he seems like not so surprise and cherish it…Haih…The Sweetheart Award certificate that I prepared for him last valentine day, he also thrown it in a dark corner in my house…and I’m the one who “save” it and cleaned it…Now, it is still place in my room and I don’t know whether he noticed it or not, but one thing that I can confirm is he did not asking it back from me…What it means? That’s means he doesn’t cherish that present? Or he can’t find any free space in his home to place it? Actually, quite sad in my heart…but I never mentioned it because I don’t wish to have any quarrel with him just for this tiny certificate…I should happy that he loves the perfume, another present I bought for him besides that powerpoint show…At last, Happy Valentine to me…

Sadness

2009-02-11T22:45:00.001+08:00

February 7, 2009 (Saturday) night, I’m shock to receive an email from Muar…My good friend cum church counselor, Mr. Lawrence has passed away on February 6, 2009 (Friday) morning…I knew him since the year of 2002 when I first time to join Trinity Church in Muar... He is a very helpful, nice, smiley, and pious guy…I still remember he is the one who take the initiative to welcome me and invite me to have lunch with them after praying ceremony…He is the one who taught me “Love is to learn accept and let go” when I sadness to break up with my ex…He is the one who so keen to fetch me to church and send me back to hostel after praying time…Never forget of his caring to fetch me for lunch every Sunday before home…His favorite food was Pork Rib Mee, he told me very tasty and yummy…but what a pity that I don’t have any chance to taste it again…He is always so cheerful and I like to share my doubt and sadness with him…That should have four to five years that I never see him…I’m really sorry that I have not spare any time to meet you every time you came to Johor Bahru…You always in my memory, my dear friend…

The foreign comer

2009-02-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

Don’t know when…my Vietnam neighbors have bought one set of karaoke system and it means that our bad dream just begin…Forgive me to say that they are really low education barbarian…How come I said like that? It is not because I’m discriminating them as a foreign worker…Actually, I’m quite respect those foreign comer from other counties just for the purpose of earning more money for their hometown family…I can say they are really brave in my eyes…but the problem is…..They sing loudly everyday and I can say it is sound pollution for my family… They ignore our reminder and continue to sing loudly as they wish even though in the night time when everyone in my family are sleeping…My mum has requested, reminded and become warning them, but the result is NO USE! I really don’t know where my tolerance limitation is…I will ask for the police help if I really can’t take it anymore…They are really butt shit!

Summer’8 Sister – Erin is getting married soon

2008-12-29T20:01:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I’ve received such a surprise new from my Summer’8 Girls that our Ms. Erin Tan is getting married on July 18, 2009 (Saturday)…Oh my god, I really feel happy for her and Mr. Steven Timun…hahaha…I promised to be her wedding sister on her big day with all my other Summer’8 Girls…It should be our second sister gathering since the first Genting gathering I’ve absent…Almost two years that I’ve not meet with them…Still remember that we wondered who will be the first to get married among eight sisters…Then finally, most of our sense are actual…The first getting married is you, Ms. Erin Tan…hahaha…then who will be the second? Most of them said is me…?? Really?? Hahaha….I also wish to know the answer…As long as my ending is sweet and nice with him, I really don’t mind to wait for him longer although sometimes I felt that I really “untahanable” to marry him soonest…hahaha…

In this one and half years, we’ve suffered a lot of change…no matter from environment, career and love ship…Some are broken up with their beloved one…no matter who is the intention one to mention, I still wish to tell the stupid guys that “you’re so stupid and just likes a idiot to lost such a wonderful girl likes us”…Girls, let’s cheer up…because we’re the best in the world…For those who have starting their new relationship, cherish and tolerance are most important to strengthen your love…I hope to hear the good new from you all soon, likes Ms. Erin Tan and Mr. Steven Timun…hahaha…and please gambate and don’t give up for those whose destiny haven’t come yet…Please trust that the best always coming later…

Anyway, I love you all my summer’8 Sisters…May all your love desires will come true in this new coming year…Let’s waiting for our next year gathering…

I miss you

2008-12-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

It is night…listening to English oldies love songs which were always playing in my university life…but it is different now, Tata not around with me…I love this series of oldies love songs really much…It makes human feeling happiness and romantic, especially women…It is just likes bathing in the love river every moment…Every song from this 38 non-stop oldies love songs give me a familiar feeling…It let me thinking back all the sad and sweet memories when I studied in UTM…

Thinking back the first day we met in UTM...He brought me to do the medical checkup in the University Clinic…He asked out for the movie together, Spider man II…The night he drunk and told me that he loves me…The second day, he asked me to Balai Cerapan to view the beautiful scenery…The moment I pretended as a very independent women and refused to hold hid hand to climb cross the window there…The night he hugged me tightly and asked me to be his girl…The funny moment when I requested him to wear my high heel to walk around the Danga Bay as his punishment for not waiting for me…The life after we together…The way he standing when he waited for me at Block U7 in Kolej Perdana…The extreme sweet feeling when we so desired to see each other every day… Every night he said he misses me so much in the phone…He brought me along to his every performance in Bean Sprout Band…The first day we visited each other family…The efforts that he did for me when my dad bad ill in hospital…He is the one who stay by my side every second whether sad or happy moment…He fetch me to work every day when I just got my first job after my graduation…All of this are just like what have happened yesterday…In this four and half years, I love him more and more and more…and it is included a very familiar feeling…Yes, I do…I do to live together with him forever whenever he is rich or poor as long as his heart is true for me and only me can in his eyes…

So wish can hug him now and never let him go…

恋爱就像放风筝

2008-11-29T08:24:00.000+08:00

有人说有人说恋爱就像放风筝，如果太计较就有悔恨。。。对于爱就该收放自如，有时放松，有时却要拉得紧紧的。。。放的太松会让风筝越飞越远，远得看不见也感觉不到。。。拉得太紧却又让风筝容易在飞的过程中断线。。。想不到原来爱情还真是一个大学问。。。想要经营的好一段感情，单方面的付出是绝对不够的。。。到底怎样才能做到其中的平衡点呢?到底谁能告诉我怎样才能把爱情想放风筝般的控制在手掌里?

Love Feeling

2008-11-26T08:42:00.000+08:00

Today morning seem likes so hard to leave for work…because tata accompany me for whole night, it is so warm to sleep in his arm…Yesterday he kissed me when he arrived my home, the first thing he said: “bi, I miss you much.” What he was saying make me feel so touch and warm…Actually, I want to tell him that: “I miss you much too.” In this 1589 together days with him, my feeling is filled with different emotions, happy, warm, touch, sad, insecure, lost, happiness, angry, excited, surprise, and so on…Yes, he is my second guy and the last guy in my life…and he is the guy I desired to marry to…I deeply trusted that we both can lead a very wonderful future life with each other…but sometimes thing can be change, this is what make me so insecure…especially there are really so many betray stories around of us…Isn’t love can be trust? Yes, I choose to trust my tata more than the love…He always said that I’m not confident with him…but I just want to tell him that I’m not unconfident for him…Sometimes, I just too sensitive and too protective for our love…I don’t want anything around us can affect our relationship…If he can feel me, he will know how deep I love for him…and forgive for my childish sometimes…I will learn to more independent and mature woman likes what you said…

Bali Island Trip

2008-11-25T14:00:00.000+08:00

September 2009 – I finally can take flight to oversea with my tata…although our destination just in Asia – Bali Island, but I still satisfied with it…It take one week duration for this easy and free trip…I think cant be described as Romantic Trip due to a group of nine people will join to trip…Happy? Disappointed? Or Excited? Erm….actually, not as exciting as what I think before…Why? First, my first planning trip with tata is Taiwan, but not Bali Island…Second, I don’t like water world activities, and I know my tata will certainly requests me to try many of that…I must be brave coz he will protect me always besides me…Third, don’t really wish to go with XX…hahaha…What a bad fella I am…anything, I don’t care…

The first thing I need to do is diet, diet and DIET…If not, how can I wear bikini in the romantic Bali Island? Second, save as much as budget money in order that I can shopping and SPA in this Enjoy Paradise…

There is one uncertain thing…the trip date still so far from now, tata and I still cant ensure that the duration available for us or not…coz one week is quite long holiday for boss…hahaha…Anyway, tata has discussed this problem with me before…He said that no need to worry more due to the flight ticket is so cheap and it is just about RM70++ per person for two ways…so we will just leave it alone if we really can’t make it on time…

Tata, thanks for bring bibi along to Bali Island trip…I love you!

11/11/2011

2008-11-11T18:42:00.000+08:00

Today is 11/11/2008…What a wonderful day for me…I can’t wait to another three more years – 11/11/2011…I planned to sell myself out on this date…haha…I think this date really meaningful and sweet memory to couples…and I think should be many pair of couple around the world will choose this date to become one, right? In my dream, I’m so wish to have a white and romantic wedding ceremony…change wedding ring with my beloved one in a white and holy church…After that, a brief and easy buffet will be held to all the attendances in the church garden…I will choose some favorite western snacks and beverages to serve for them, likes mini cheese cake, egg tart, chocolate biscuit, butter cookies, chicken spaghetti, earl tea, coffee, London milk tea and so on…During the whole buffet, some romantic western love songs will be playing…

In night, our wedding dinner will be held in a grand hotel beside the sea…and all relatives and friends will having the seafood dinner with us in the restaurant at the sea shore…They can feel free to walk along the sea with their bare foot…Red wine, white wine and seafood big feast… During the dinner, I prefer Kenny G and Enya songs to be played…and all the waiter and waitress wear Beach look…Wah…what a wonderful wedding nigh! Haha…I don’t think Johor area got this kind of wedding dinner planner can fulfill my dream likes this…some more, it is only a dream…but is a sweet dream for me…

Barbarian

2008-11-08T11:37:00.000+08:00

I just wonder how come some of the people can be so rude in this world? I always received some wrong number incoming calls in my office…If you are a normal human, what will you do when you realized that you called the wrong person? I think as a normal and polite human, you will apologize to other party right? But I really don’t get it how come some of the people like to hang out the phone without saying anything when they realized wrong number? Forgive me to say like this…I really hate this kind of people…they’re really such a BARBARIAN! Isn’t really saying “sorry” to the other is a very hard job? I’m not saying that I’m a very polite girl or what…but at least I know I will and I need to apologize to the other party when I called wrong number…This is called manner and it can be described likes a normal social way between human…

So, if you’re the human likes what I have mentioned above, please and kindly change your attitude…because it is rude thing! and for the human likes me, I would say “thank you” to you for the others…It is because you’re an understanding and polite guy…

Confused

2008-11-05T12:48:00.000+08:00

Confused…confused…I’m so confused now…I’m still considering whether I aim to work in Johor or change my environment to Singapore…What do you people think? The main reason that I desired to work in Singapore is I need money…as much as I can earn and save…due to its currency, I think I just need to suffer in the STRESS CITY about two to three years should be enough…Some more, working in Singapore giving me a chance to gain more useful experiences than working here…Forgive me to speak likes that…but it is from the bottom of my heart after I worked almost two years…Maybe I’m just likes the “Oversea moon always is rounder”…hahaha…

The bank manager offered me quite high salary and attractive allowance…but I have rejected this offer at last due for its position job scope…I don’t really interesting with its job character although I’m an outgoing and talkative girl as they described…This job actually can offer me as much as free time and space for my daily job…It is really flexible position…”Personal Financial Wealth Consultant”…Have you people heard before? Yes, I think you’re…According to the Sales Manager, I need to attend three exams before I qualified to promote the bank products…What are the products that I mentioned? I think more of you people will scare run when you know it…hahaha…What else? Unit Trust, Insurance, Personal Loans, Open Account and so on…The main position I rejected for this position is because I still love my Human Resource field very much…I think I still have a lot of HR know ledges should be gained and developed…

Yesterday, I went for second interview in a commercial company in Desa Cemerlang…It offered me “Human Capital Development Assistant” but the salary has not been decided yet…This job scope really satisfied me…It is a very new challenge for me and also my Human Resource Career life…and the most important is five days work…wahaha…then I think I can have more own time and space…The HR Manager asked me to make an amendment for my proposal and send back to her within this week…and she will consider has a third interview with me…I don’t know whether I really interesting to join or what…It is because I’m not nervous at all during the whole interview…For me, I will extra nervous if I ‘m really means to join this company…but it is not for this time…I think maybe I still cant bear to leave my first and recent company…I tell myself, yes I need and I must to leave if I want to learn more proper knowledge in Human Resource field…

What should I do? What should I decided? I’m really confused here…Am I useless for cant make myself a decision? Haih…he will certainly scold me after he starts to read my blog…hehehe…Anyway, he is still my main and only career advisor…hahaha…I need him very much…

人生旅途

2008-11-01T08:58:00.000+08:00

不知怎的。。。去年八月的心情突然又重现了。。。那是种不安的感觉。。。害怕失去，好没安全感，心情乱乱的。。。没心情工作，只想回家好好的睡个大头觉。。。感觉好像上帝把我搁浅在一旁，忘了安顿好我这迷途的羔羊。。。好像没有什么是顺利的。。。相信没多少人明白我那时的心情吧。。。好想赢取那两千万，过着无忧无虑的生活。。。

最想做的事就是环游全世界了。。。好想去土耳其，希腊，埃及，巴塞罗那及罗马。。。我喜欢土耳其的中东文化色彩，好想尝尝倒地正中的雪糕及拉红茶。。。然后再去找寻传说中的“邪恶之眼”和那儿的肚皮舞娘。。。希腊的“爱琴海”及她著名的靠海白屋则是情侣们的第一首选。。。也是我度蜜月的选择，相信一定浪漫到不行。。。

常在想象金字塔到底有多大多高?它墙上的画应该很漂亮吧?那里应该温度蛮高的。。。坐在骆驼上找寻着心中的答案应该蛮有趣的吧?

漫漫的人生路途中，如果可以和你一起完成我们的旅途。。。只能说那是我生命中最快乐的事。。。我还要求些什么呢?你到底明白我的心意吗?可是生活中充满了许多的可能，我的这些愿望可能会实现吗?

Wedding Invitation

2008-10-26T23:02:00.001+08:00

I have received a wedding invitation card from my uncle in Batu Pahat this afternoon…my cousin is getting marry next two week, November 9, 2008 (Sunday)…My cousin is two years elder than me…Long time have not contact since our family seldom to back granny home due to my past father illness…I give my bless to this pair of couple…

There are many couples around me were getting married already…erm…When can I marry with my beloved one? I wish to reached this moment really much…I think I’m a very nice wife to my future husband…hahaha…I’m a independent career woman, I can earn my own pocket money and some more can be use for our household expenses…Asides, I’m a Taurus girl…Why I said like this? Isn’t Taurus girl got any special character? Ya, I’m talent in saving as much as money in order to be use for our future investment, insurances, saving account and so on…So, I will certainly help my future husband to keep much of money…

For those who understand me very well, I think they will know that I’m a damn loyal girl to my friend, family and my guy…I started to date with my Tata since our 20th…and I dare to say that I’m 100% true to him and my love for him is gradually deeper…I wish to stay by his side forever…How wish to cook for him everyday…breakfast, lunch and dine…I want him to enjoy health homemade food…especially his most preferable food, Mian Fen Guo…He said my Mian Fen Guo very delicious, and can compare with his mother…hahaha…

Hopefully the days in front of us are always brightly…I love you so much!

Blue Night

2008-10-25T00:16:00.000+08:00

Can’t get though to tata handset again…wonder what he is doing now? Where is he now? Will he miss me at this moment too? He is really busy with his graduated thesis recently…As his girlfriend, I need to support him always, but not always complaint he hardly spare some time for me…Isn’t? Tomorrow is Saturday again, and continuing with Sunday and Monday Deepavali…Two and half days rest days seem too long for me without him…Wonder how should I spend this few days holidays effectively… Too bore to stay at home and no one can accompany me to hang out since all my friends have their own social life…I begin to feel that life is meaningless…

At this moment, it will be really perfect feel if I can lying on a beautiful sea shore and staring at the stars in the darkness sky with my favourite cherry cigar…more wonderful if there got some red wine…and the radio is playing Kenny G song…Wah!! Damn blue night…Maybe you don’t believe that this is what Gwen will do…but absolutely this is the real Gwen…Who likes to smoke and drink when she is indulging to think something…

The night is getting later…and I also getting tire…Good night…Tomorrow always better!

Painted Skin

2008-10-24T08:42:00.000+08:00

Last two weekends ago, I have caught up a very nice movie with my Tata - Painted Skin. Its main female roles are Zhao Wei and Zhou Xun, both my idols. I admired their acting skill, really talent. Actually, I don’t really want to catch up this movie in cinema and just planned to buy a DVD to see together with whole family members, but due to it is a big cooperation product from Singapore, China, Taiwan and Hong Kong then we just decided to buy ticket.

This movie story is written based on a traditional mysterious China story called Liao Zhai. I love the series of stories from this book, especially this story – Painted Skin. Before you catch up this movie, maybe you will feel it must be a very horror and scary vixen spirit story, but actually it is not after you go through its story. It is a very romantic and sadness love story with some mysterious feel in the vixen spirit part.

How about let me have a share briefing about this story with the entire movie lover? Haha…In this story, it stated that a vixen spirit which role playing by Zhou Xun desired to be a human and she need to sacrifice a real human everyday to get their heart. Once day, she has been saved by a general – Chen Kun incidentally from a robbery camp on a penniless hill when she is targeting her next victim. The vixen spirit falls in love with this general and follows the general back to their hometown. What the poor general still not aware that she is a devil vixen spirit…and he is bringing a lot of troubles to his hometown.

In this story, the part that I most preferable when they suspected the general’s wife – Zhao Wei is a devil and rushing to kill her in the hill. The general speak something really touching and make me cried for whole ending part. When his followers prepared to kill his wife, he told them: “I will kill her immediately if she is really the vixen spirit, but as a husband, how can I abandon her?” After that, he hugged her wife in his arm deeply. From what he done, I can really felt that he really loves and dotes his wife very much. Really touching for this movie you know? I think that all the girls will love this story really much, but for the male…I’m definitely cant ensure..because I realized that my tata always yawning in the cinema. Hahaha…..I know he don’t really likes to catch up this kind of movie, he loves transformer, Iron Man, Spiderman and so on guys movie...

Overall, I will mark this movie including the actors’ acting skill for about 80%...So, all movie lovers must give it a try and faster to catch up this movie if you are believe my taste…hehe…

I lost my way....

2008-10-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

This moment, I really feel bad…I lost my way…Suddenly, I don’t know where I should going on…Maybe I’m a person likes to thinking some nonsense things just like what my Tata always commented me...I like to thinking the worst result for any decision that I made...really terrible right? But sometimes really no choice, because this is my character…can be change but difficultly to change in a shortly time...

Recently, I really think too much for my future…always thinking that isn’t worth to be continuing in my current job? Or it is the time to change? Actually, working for recent company is really happy and learn a lot of new knowledge other than what I can found in the book…All colleagues and working environment are satisfy for me…I really feel happy and willing to stay here…but actually I don’t really satisfy with my current job scope…I means maybe some tiny thing in a company, for instances in-charge some insurance issues, lorry checking and repairment date arrangement, company server problem and so on…All of the job stated above sometimes really make me fade up with my current job…Actually, my interesting job is focusing on Human Resource but not administration job…Sometimes I will ask myself why I need to do some tiny job likes this after I so hardly to finished my degree years? I wish to do and urged to learn some skillful knowledge like what I see in my book…

I’m looking for joining new company…I don’t know whether I want to get new challenge? New environment? Or new higher salary? I always feel that my starting salary in this company is really really low…RM1550? Starting, I told myself that I m fresh graduated who just like a white paper without any ink…so this price is considering matching with my experience…but I gradually feel that it is really low for me although I m fresh graduated…Am I not humble person if I got this kind of mind set? I’m not sure too, but I really have this kind of thinking always…Maybe it is because all my graduated friends in same year with me are getting quite good in HR field…Most of their salary can achieve RM2000 above and just working for five days…I admire them? Or jealous them? So I think it is the time I need to change if I get nice opportunity…

If I want to leave one day, there are two persons that I really can’t bear to apart…my superior and managing director…Indeed they are giving me too much of opportunity and my own space to perform my knowledge and experience…They take very nice care for me…I really loves them very much…

Today after work, I have an appointment to interview as a sales and Loan Consultant in a local bank…I’m still wonder that isn’t it suitable for me? Will I be recruiting by them? Will I agree to be joining them? Will I regret if I choose to leave here? Better don’t think anymore…I’m complicated now…Oh my God!! Please show me some confident and power…and please show me the way that I should really go with it…O…God!! Please always be with me…

难懂的缘字。。

2008-09-19T13:08:00.000+08:00

"從前有個書生, 和未婚妻約好在某年某月某日結婚…到那一天, 未婚妻卻嫁給了別人. 書生受此打擊, 一病不起...家人用盡各種辦法都無能為力, 眼看奄奄一息...路過一游方僧人, 得知情況, 決定點化一下他...

僧人到他床前, 從懷裡摸出一面鏡子叫書生看…書生看到茫茫大海, 一名遇害的女子一絲不掛地躺在海灘上...

路過一人, 看一眼, 搖搖頭, 走了...又路過一人, 將衣服脫下, 給女屍蓋上, 走了....再路過一人, 過去, 挖個坑, 小心翼翼把屍體掩埋了....疑惑間, 畫面切換...書生看到自己的未婚妻...洞房花燭, 被她丈夫掀起蓋頭的瞬间...書生不明所以…

僧人解釋道, 那具海灘上的女屍, 就是你未婚妻的前世...你是第二個路過的人, 曾給過他一件衣服她今生和你相戀, 只為還你一個情...但是她最終要報答一生一世的人, 是最後那個把她掩埋的人, 那人就是他現在的丈夫…書生大悟, 唰地從床上做起, 病癒 ! "

觉得这篇短文很有意思...也许人与人之间就只要求一个缘拥有的要珍惜，失去的就让它过去...明天永远都是最好的....我想每个人都明白这话的意思，但又有多少人能做的到呢...

我错了。。

2008-07-25T18:53:00.000+08:00

今天心情很不好。。他说我的爱给得太多了，他真的好压力。。有时他甚至在想是不是要放手，让我去寻找更好的未来。。听到他的心里话，心里真的好难过。。难道爱一个人不是应该用全心去爱吗?可是为什么我的爱不是让他感到幸福，而相反的却是不安及压迫?一直以为自己是百分百的女朋友，也一直因为这样而为自己的付出感到无比的骄傲，也为他拥有这份难能可贵的爱情感到自豪。。但真的是时候该好好反省及衡量了。。因为我错了。。

当我们的爱情只剩一百步。。

2008-06-24T12:24:00.000+08:00

我和你背對背開始往前走,我們說好當走到第一百步的時候，再回頭，如果還能看到對方,我們就忘掉以前所有的不快樂，重新開始。如果看不到彼此,就一直走下去,永遠不要回頭。

當我走出第一步時,有一種叫悲哀的東西漫過心底。我們的愛情路只剩下九十九步，我們怎麼走到了今天這一步?曾幾何時，我們一起在雨中漫步，衣服濕了也不覺得冷。曾幾何時，我們在雪天裏呼著熱氣吃冰淇淋,當人們投來驚異的目光中,我們竟哈哈大笑。我已走過二十步,你呢?我好想回頭看看你,看看你是不是一樣和我步履維艱。

你還記得嗎?你教我學電腦的時候說過,編程時會遇上一種情況叫“死迴圈”，進去了就出不來，你說你對我的愛就是死迴圈，當時我很感動。我走完五十步時，有個賣烤番薯的老先生，問我要不要買烤番薯，我搖了搖頭,他就推著車子走了。為何他不再多和我講幾句話? 那樣我便可以停留一會兒,不要再走下去。

我走了八十步，在我身後的你是否也在想我們前段不愉快的日子?我們為一點點小事天天爭吵，不知為什麼，我總是對著你哭，你便心亂如麻，煩躁不安。然後，我們都無端地說出一些互相傷害的話。終於有一天你對我說:“我們不能再這樣下去了，不然都會被折磨死，分開吧!”

九十九步了。我艱難地抬起沉重的腳，遲遲不願放下，我怕放下腳時，回頭再也看不見你；我怕放下腳時，回頭將永遠失去你；我怕放下腳時,我從此再沒有幸福可言；我怕……腳終於落下了，淚也順頰而下，我不想回頭，也不願回頭，我控制不住自己，蹲下身痛哭起來。

突然，一雙寬大的手抱住了我的雙肩，我回過頭看到了你，看到了你充滿了深深自責和濃濃愛意的雙眼。我撲進你的懷裏，哭著說:“我不要再往下走了。”你把我緊緊抱住，輕輕撫摸著我的長髮說，“永遠不會再讓你一個人走。其實，我一直走在你的身後，一直在等你回頭。”

看完这篇短文，我哭了。。真的好感人，也好伤感。。心里不禁开始想像如果我是那女孩会怎样。。会有如何的心情，感觉及看法。。也许有的人选择远地不动；有的人选择中途放弃；甚至有的人会选择继续往前走，永远不再回头。。但对爱情执着的我会坚持不懈的继续走下去，尽管到最后结果还是零。一旦爱上，绝不保留。。

我常在想。。为什么人们总爱轻易的放弃一段得来不易的感情?他们怎么忍心去伤害一个曾经那么爱的人?有的好想爱，但没对象。。有的有人爱，却又不懂的去珍惜。。我身边好多朋友的经历，甚至是我自己的过去都让我有好多，好多的感触。。也让我对爱更尊敬，更珍惜，也更宝贝。。有些人对于爱都抱着不肯定的态度。。甚至是玩玩的心态。。永远都认为还能再找到更好的，更适合自己的，更能满足自己的。。

我曾经就看过那么一篇好有意思的短文。。它说：“若你此刻已有一位长久相伴的伴侣，不要再随便三心二意地犹疑了，我们不易察觉感情中的一个陷阱，就是“近亲生慢侮”，也就是经济学中的铁律“边际效益递减法则”，跟你在一起越久的人，就越容易麻木与忽视，而新鲜的“际遇”总是那么动人可爱。在感情对待中，难免有摩擦与无心的伤害，而且论得罪自己的次数累加起来最多的人，当然是跟我们在一起最久、最亲近的人。而新欢呢，又还没开始有得罪你的机会，再加上他的刻意讨好，所以新欢怎么看怎么可爱，旧爱怎么看怎么讨厌。但别忘了，新欢身上总是有不确定的未知数，旧爱身上就是有难得的熟悉感、确定感、信赖感。千万不要随便在偶然的“际遇”中迷失了自己，错放了幸福温暖的手。。

所以萧伯纳的话，是要提醒情人不要太钻牛角尖于寻觅那唯一，应该把精神用在学会经营幸福的能力上，同时也提醒我们“弱水三千只取一瓢饮”若有幸遇到了难得的伴侣，就不要再三心二意了，因为我们永远不知道一生何时会遇到两万个其中的几个，所以要知福惜福、活在当下。。

爱情是个很深奥的学问。。很多未知数。。我不想也不敢想太多，因为太害怕失去。。至少现在的我在感情里是幸福的。。当然我会想萧伯纳所说的：把所有的精神用在学会经营现在拥有的幸福上，而不会再三心二意了。。因为我找到了。。。当然我也希望他也和我有着一样的想法。。。永远要幸福在一起哦。。。要记得幸福真的好贵！

~My Depertment Grand Event~

2008-06-11T18:39:00.000+08:00

We have celebrated Eta and Indira (Human Resource Personals)birthday in our department yesterday. Actually, we planned to celebrate their birthday together due to both of their birthday are quite near. Eta is June 11 and Indira is June 19.

I love this kind of celebration in our office. It is not only can have fun together, but also can make closer the relation between all of the staffs in the same department. It just like what my ex-superior said:” Team work spirit is more important than anything in the working place.” So, he brought in a “New Rule” into our Admin Department. He suggested that we celebrated each birthday together in this department, so this time also no excuse although he is already not around in our company.

Fionna (my dearest superior) and I went out to buy a very tasty chocolate cake and one set of McDonald for each of the staff, these are Grace (Account Assistant), Satia (Account Officer), Eta (Human Resource Assistant) and also Indira (Human Resource Assistant). Asides, we have another very honour guest, Mr Gary to sing the birthday song together for our two birthday star. I think they must be very surprised and happy because we did not inform them regarding this celebration.

We took a lot of photo after the birthday song. The funniest thing is all of them did not realize the magic candles we used for the birthday cake, especially when both of them unable to blow the candles. Haha…Satia likes the magic candles very much and she also stated that she planned to use it in her husband’s birthday party in August. Mr. Hang, you better aware oo…hehe...

The most thing I feel proud is the birthday presents that I choose last week. Both of their present is earring...is a pair of crystal earring which imported from Korea...They are look shinny and twinkles... and all of this are under my expectation because they love it very much…

All of us enjoyed this one hour celebration although it is just some normal refreshment. I like my colleagues very much… They treat me quite nice, but sometimes they also like to bully me...Hahaha… Time really flied fast, especially the time I have graduated…This is my first full time job and also this is the first company in my life…I have learnt a lot of new knowledges and gained much of experiences for my career life…I believe that I will missing this company very much even if I choose to leave…At last, thank a lot to all my dear colleagues, especially my superior, Fionna…

达达，生日快乐

2008-06-06T16:59:00.000+08:00

6月4日是老公的24岁生日，虽然那天晚上发生了点小插曲，但我们都过得蛮开心，感觉蛮浪漫的。。约好了八点正，但他竟睡迟了。。结果正要十点才来到我家门口。。那时我对他发了好大的脾气。。在一路上，车里的火药味还蛮重的。。话也说不上两句。。因为我生气他坏了我的大计划，误了我的节目编排。。结果我们当晚只去了餐厅。。哪都别想去了。。

我早在一个月前便安排好一切，决定给老公一个美好的回忆。。Boca Jazz Café, 华语名叫博客爵士咖啡馆是在我计划中的首选。。记得情人节当天，我们在无意间发现了这件蛮特别，也蛮浪漫的咖啡馆。。可惜当晚基于满座的原故，所以我和老公只好去找寻另外间餐馆了。。我早在一个月前便联络它的负责人，依旋。。这次生日的安排，我得好好的感谢她。。谢谢她很亲切得为我准备一切小细节。。还有不忘一提的是她介绍的美食。。虽然与其它正宗的西餐厅比起来，还有进步的空间。。但加上它浪漫又轻松的环境及服务员礼貌的招待，我们给它打最少八十分。。

还有值得一赞的是店里的厕所，好有新意和创意。。哪位像我对厕所有好奇的朋友，可要去去他们的厕所啦。。包你会多望几眼。。那天晚上，服务员亲切的递上了爱的留言条，让我们对彼此写上爱的宣言。。而他们过后把写好的心形留言条钉在店员们精心设计的墙板上。。想知道我们写些什么就得光顾那间店咯。。哈哈。。

当我们用完主餐后，他们更细心的为老公递上我早叫Fionna送去的生日蛋糕。。
(说到这里也不忘感谢我可爱又大方的上司，Fionna) 这次我选了我最爱吃的芝士蛋糕。。他们选播了一首爵士生日歌，情调蛮好的，老公也好惊喜，但他也蛮害臊的。。因为周围的客人都望着他看。。哈哈。。过后他在吹熄蜡烛前许了个愿，其实我好想知道他许了什么愿望，到底我在不在他的愿望里呢。。依旋帮我们拍了几张照片，说要放在他们的部落格里。。我看过几天，我可要好好注意看看到底我们有没有上榜。。哈哈。。不过如果那么不小心在哪个部落格里看到我，可别吓着了。。因为我真的胖了好多好多。。

在那里享受了一整夜的爵士音乐及美食，真是棒极了。。我们总共花了RM64++。。不过感觉还蛮值得的啦。。我希望以后的每个生日，他都能陪在我身边，就那么的简单纯朴。。因为和他在一起的日子，虽然平淡，很生活化，但却让我感觉到好舒服，好开心。。谢谢你，达！